Matthew Paul Turner, the former editor of CCM Magazine (Contemporary Christian Music Magazine), just announced on Facebook that he is gay and is divorcing his wife. Following a string of former “Christians” who renounced their faith and/or came out gay, this is not shocking as the Contemporary Christian scene is filled with apostates who are in it for nothing more than the money and notoriety.
Dear friends, I have difficult news to share. After much thought, prayer, and counseling, Jessica and I have made the decision to end our marriage. While we’re best friends and thoroughly love doing life, parenting, and pursuing our dreams together, ending our marriage is necessary because I am gay.
Of course, this only begs the question: if Turner is a homosexual, caving to his lusts of the heart and rebelling against God, and now divorcing his wife — an act that God hates — then what makes him think that this is the conclusion that he came to from God through “prayer”?
Last year, Purity Pastor Josh Harris renounced his faith, divorced his wife, and started marching in gay pride parades. Not too long after that, popular Hillsong worship leader, Marty Sampson renounced his faith. Several other notable pop Christian stars renounced their faith in 2019 as well. However, this is the first major apostasy of 2020.
Being gay isn’t a new discovery for me. However, as someone who spent 30+ years in fundamentalist/evangelical churches, exploring God through conservative theologies, I’ve lived many days overwhelmed by fear, shame, and self-hatred. Though my own faith evolved long ago to become LGBTQ+ affirming, my journey toward recognizing, accepting and embracing myself took much longer. But for the first time in my life, despite the sadness and grief I’m feeling right now, I can say with confidence that I’m ready to embrace freedom, hope, and God as a gay man.
I would not be able to say that without Jessica’s undying grace and support. I fell in love with her 17 years ago and still love her deeply. Despite her own grief and pain, she has loved and encouraged me to be fully me. Many of the steps I’ve taken recently wouldn’t have happened without Jessica walking beside me, helping me through every fear. Jessica is and will always be my hero. She’s brave, strong and showcases love like nobody I know.
Our utmost desire is to move forward in love and compassion for each other and put the well-being of our kids first. Coming out to my kids was one of the hardest, most beautiful things I’ve ever done. Loving and protecting their stories will always be our first priority.
I will continue to write children’s books and am grateful for the support of my publisher Convergent Books. Writing books about wholeness, hope, and God’s love for children is an honor and privilege I do not take for granted.
That said, we ask that you be kind and respectful toward us. Anyone who posts comments laced in shame, criticism of our family, our theology, or our choices will be blocked.
Throughout these hard months, Jessica and I have looked at each other many times and said, “we’re going to be okay.” And on most days, we fully believe that. Please keep us in your thoughts, prayers as we engage this new path.
Essentially, Turner admits that he has lived in rebellion against God his entire life, rejected repentance and faith in Christ, and is now showing himself to be unregenerate amid his inability to save himself from his own sin. We should pray that Turner ultimately hears the gospel and receives it, however, we should not be surprised by such an incident. Wide is the gate that leads to destruction! (Matthew 7:13)